I know you want to make a difference in the world, to
do something great with your life. But, I fail to see why joining the Army
is the best way to make that happen.
I'm scared to death of
losing you, but you seem to pay no attention to that fact. You may be
at peace with the fact that death is a part of life, and if you end up
dying young, you're not afraid of it, but I cannot say the same for
myself. You said to me that if your death allows someone else to live
a better life, then so be it. But, I believe you have forgotten that
your death would ruin more lives: the lives of those you left behind.
If I were to receive the news that you had been killed in action, I
would die on the spot of a broken heart, for I cannot bear to live
I'm sorry I cannot be as fearless and cavalier as
you are. I want you to be happy, most certainly, but there are so many
other ways you could make a difference in this world, and make other
people's lives better. You were considering a career in law
enforcement, were you not? That's a perfect way to make a difference.
And, if you want the sort of military aspect, go for SWAT. Please...at
least consider it.
When we talked earlier, you wouldn't even
kiss me back. That hurts. When you do kiss me back, to me it means
that everything's alright, or is going to be alright. You probably
have no idea how good it makes me feel when you kiss me. And, I've
noticed that the only times you've told me you love me have been when
things have gone drastically wrong. That hurts, too. It's hard for me
to tell you that I love you, and have it go unnoticed, or intentionally
ignored (I often can't tell the difference). You're breaking my heart,
I know I probably can't stop you from enlisting, as much
as I want to. So, know that I'm here for you, and when you leave (I'm
crying at that thought), know that I'll be right here waiting for your
return, with open arms. You're the only one for me.
All my love, always and forever,
Your girlMon cher, je t'aime, maintenant et toujours. Je te donne moi-meme, mon coeur, mon ame.